Love is ....

"LOVE is that strong awesome feeling

that scares the hell out of you. 

It doesn't go away

no matter how much you will it to."

Am I really in love for the nth time? Does it count that this one special person is always on my mind and I don't even know why the thought of him just doesn't go away? Does it count that I am missing him whenever I don't talk to him and that his simple "hello" is more than enough to make my day? And if he doesn't text or call at all changes my mood all together? Whew! And I am just starting!

"Is this love, 

feeling restless inside, wanting you

to be always by my side ... 

How long this madness will last, 

'Cause I think I'm in love!"

So goes a song (dunno if I got the words right, but it more than summarizes this welling feeling inside).


He asked me recently how it all started ... come to think of it, I just don't know --- it just happened! I don't know how, I don't know when! It just happened! And it happened with just a blink of the eyes --- BOOM! I felt I was starting to miss him. He was constantly on my mind and every where I looked, whatever I do just seemed to remind me of him. I started getting upset when he doesn't send me a message or if he doesn't call!


And then, I just realized, yeah, I was falling for this guy whom I've known practically all my life! It was like, something that wasn't there before suddenly appeared! It was like seeing him differently! Seeing him as someone I could really fall for!


I guess that's just how love is --- if it is true, you don't know where it's coming from and you don't need a reason to justify that feeling!


So, am I in love? Is this for real? Do I take the risk of falling and getting hurt?


The hell with all the doubts and fears .... so I'll just take a fall and see where it takes me ... see where it takes us ....

I LOVE HIM AND IT''S ALL THAT MATTERS!

madiesms

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