Missing You Badly ...

I am sorry if I constantly 

want to talk to you. 

I am sorry if I get really sad 

when you take too long 

to reply to my messages.

I am sorry if I am annoying you

with my text messages.

I am sorry if i say things

that might piss you off.

I am sorry if I think about you

too much and too often. 

I am sorry if i tell you

about my pointless drama

when you seem not to care. 

I am sorry if I become too clingy.

You just have to bear with me 

because that is just me,

missing you so badly!

madiesms

092112

I Hate This Feeling

I just hate what I am feeling right now. 

I know deep in my heart I have every reason to walk away, but I just can't. I don't know why, but I just can't! 

Why do I love you? Why should I love you this much? It was not supposed to happen this way! Why did it have to be this way? I was doing fine in my own little world ... I was happy and contented ... but you just have to come right in and create ripples in my once calm waters. 

I have always seen you as a friend --- a very dear friend. Why a sudden twist of fate in an instant? It was like, what hit me? I don't even know what really hit me!?!? 

I know that the right thing to do is to just walk away ... you asked me why you ... I don't have the answer for that --- thing is, I really don't know ... I haven't stopped asking myself that question ever since that one single moment that changed everything --- I haven't found the answers to the why's! I haven't quite figured out how this came to be! 

All I know is that I have this strong feelings for you, just waiting for the right moment ... would there ever come a right moment? Would there ever be a time for us? I don't know ... I guess there won't be --- and that's what hurts the most! 

I hate what I am feeling right now because I know it in my heart I have to let go and just walk away .... but I just can't ... I can't bring myself to do that because you already have a special place in my heart ... you hold the key to my heart ... you have brought out the best in me ever since you showed me that you cared for me ... do you love me like you say you do? That's gonna remain a mystery, maybe! I'll forever be puzzled by that ... and I might not even find out the truth ... maybe because I am too afraid of the truth. 

I dread the fact that I have to say goodbye from this love --- a love that has given me both tears and smiles ... with tears dominating but the hell I care ... I love you --- that's plain and simple, that's all there is to it! People might not understand, while there are those who will ... I just hope they won't judge me for my choices ... they won't judge me for my feelings! 

I just hate this feeling --- the feeling of being caught in a crossroad --- and you don't know where to go! 

No, not that, I know where to go but I am just too stubborn and too blind to find the right way back to my sanity! 

Guess, that's just how confused I am right now! 

madiesms

081612

One Day

One day ... 

I just might not be there anymore. 

And when that day comes, 

you're going to miss

the little messages I give you.

You are going to miss how I used 

to worry about you when you're sick 

or out late for work. 

One day you are going to miss 

how I used to annoy you with my texts. 

One day you are going to look for me

but I'll be long gone.

One day ...

I am not going to be there.

One day ...

~ madiesms

072712

Destiny?

When two people 

are meant to be together, 

 no matter what their relationship might be, 

 the universe will always find a way 

to bring them together.

Do Not Judge

We are living in a world with so much hatred in most people’s hearts. 
They are quick to pass judgment without getting the facts straight. 
They are quick to hate without knowing what the real story is. 
They are quick to point an accusing finger without examining their own souls. 
Their unkind words inflict pain … they are quick to hurt people …

Look into your hearts… find it in your heart to understand …
Find it in your heart to listen for just a moment for that inner voice 
that tells you, “Shush, the person you might be passing judgment on, the person you might hate on, the person you might be saying unkind words to is fighting their own battle.” 

Be kindhearted and do not pass judgment, because God loved you enough to wake you up this morning to enjoy life; consider yourself blessed because somewhere out there, someone wasn’t given that opportunity to live another day.

 madiesms

071812

I Miss You ....

I miss you more than words can say,

the feelings get stronger day by day.

Although I know these feelings are true,

I know I have to wait for you.

So when I feel lonely and I need a hug,

I will think of you 

and make believe you're near, my love. 

 I know you can't always be by my side, 

but I know you'll eventually find your way. 

So i'll find you in my thoughts and in my dreams

until such time you're near. 

Even if you're not always here to feel my touch,

I will always have you in my heart. 

madiesms

071812

Life Goes On

when you feel like the world is caving in, continue to fight. 
when you feel like you are about to give up, continue to fight. 
when you feel like nothing seems to be going right, continue to fight. 
when you feel like there is no hope in sight, continue to fight. 
it is not the amount of struggles you had to go through that matters --- 
it is how you fought your battles,
it is how you stood up for what you believe is right,
it is how you proved your point without stepping on people's toes.
it is how you fought for your beliefs without hurting anybody.
it is how you have proven the naysayers wrong.
it is how you have proven to everyone that you can rise above the challenges.
life does not end with a single detour.
life goes on.
it goes on.
it goes on. 

madiesms

070312